No News Is Good News

I haven't blogged in awhile but there is still that part of me that likes to hold on to this blog as my online journal even if no one reads it. I could advertise more especially to family & friends but it really isn't about the audience to me as much as it is about just the knowing I can come here to say what is on my mind!

For now, no new "news". I am finishing up my third semester of nursing school, Baylee finishing up middle school and Brian has a few months before he is 100% done with paramedic school! Things have been stressful but thankfully we are going on a cruise in less than three weeks. We didn't really need to spend the money but boy oh boy do we need a break!

Well back to studying! I have my last chapter test tomorrow and my final next week! I will try to do a post about my third semester journey...after I see that final grade! :)

Continuance

Continuance - the act or instance of continuance.

I almost titled this post "starting over" but I decided that doesn't accurately reflect where I am in this journey. I have strayed away for a few months now but today I am "continuing" where I left off. Yes, I have gained a few of the lost pounds back but not all so I will continue to lose weight! Yes, I slipped off the wagon but now I will continue with the same focused mindset that I had before!

Let's do this!!!!!!

Weigh-In: Week 7

No excuses but the last couple of weeks have been crazy and to be honest I really haven't "tried" to do better these last few weeks...not as hard as I should have anyway. I have still stayed away from "regular" sodas & sweet tea which is a biggie for me. I have also done a "little" better about food but not as good as I should have. I can't tell you the last time I had some water & I haven't exercised in weeks. That being said...this week I am mainly focusing on my water intake & getting back on track with my exercise since those are things I have made the smallest effort to do. Next week, I will add in being a little more strict on my diet. I have 18 more pounds I want to lose before our cruise in 69 days so I better get with it! Unfortunately, I am back up 3 pounds from when I started and now after seven weeks I am just at a loss of:

I have two words to say to that...GAME ON!


P.S. I haven't blogged since last Monday....gotta get back on that...makes me feel more motivated!

Weigh-In: Week 6

Well, I guess I am going to keep gaining and losing this one pound if I don't get on top of things. I didn't expect to lose big after the week I had. It was so stressful and I bombed my first test in a year so wasn't real motivated to eat well. This weekend I had to hit the reset button & just chill-out. Brian & I had Longhorn Friday night, Saturday I had a shake & snacked during the day & me and the girls had Bonsai Saturday night. On Sunday, we ate Mexican for lunch, Bop's Custard for afternoon dessert, leftover Mexican for dinner, boiled peanuts & some starbursts chews. Needless to say, I am glad I didn't gain more! So here is my six week total:

I Know What I Want To Be When I Grow Up!

Can you believe it? I actually know what I want to be when I grow up! :-) It has ONLY taken me almost 33 years! As you can see from my other posts, I am in nursing school! I was trying to do a nursing school Vlog and will probably update it eventually but anyone who has been in nursing school will tell you how little time you have to do anything...even if it is something you really enjoy! That is a story for another day!


I may or may not have mentioned it before but I have wanted to do travel nursing for a long time. I also would love to teach...and work with veterans and I have a passion for wanting to work in the mission field! That being said...I want to be a nurse in the medical missionary field.  Yup...that is what I want to do one day.


I would love to work at the VA to work with Veterans. When Baylee graduates I would like to become a travel nurse & perhaps when I get tired of traveling I would like to teach nursing. However, I would LOVE to volunteer in the medical missionary field as often as I can in between travel nursing and/or school semesters if I am teaching!


Feels good to FINALLY "know". 

Humor in Weight-Loss

I started out this week sooooo well! Then on Tuesday I was rushing to clinical and didn't have time to grab breakfast. I grabbed a 90 calorie fiber bar and some water. I was soooo hungry by the time I got home and Brian had made lunch (I was supposed to shake for lunch). It was red beans & rice made with deer sausage & brown rice. I felt I had eaten "too much" rice...it was a BIG bowl and said we would just shake for dinner and I would fix Baylee something since I needed to be studying for my test. Well as dinner time got closer & since Brian was coming home from school early I broke down & ordered a pizza and I am not even a "pizza" person! So I had two slices of pizza and 3 or 4 buffalo wings. I did at least drink water (with "Mio") both times. I thought...okay...tomorrow I have to get on it!


Woke up yesterday morning...started out with TWO pop tarts. LOL Not good I know but only had three hours of sleep because of studying for a test. Went to school...was miserable after I took my test since I am pretty sure I bombed it...and went through McDonald's and got a fish sandwich (observing lent), medium fries and a diet coke. My "pouting" got worse and I started feeling bad through the day. Didn't really want anything I had here and wasn't going to church because I was so sleepy and my head hurt (on top of pouting about my test!). So I decided I needed to order something else "meat free" and ultimately decided on load fries (without bacon) from Steak Escape. Ordered that and a diet coke. LOL WAIT...there is more...so sitting in line I look over and see Zaxby's and think...mmm....they have great milkshakes. SOOO got my fries/drink and went to Zaxby's and got a shake & fried mushrooms! After I ate that stuff I said to myself..."Self, you know you are going to have to confess all this tomorrow."


Fast forward to this morning, I woke up and decided okay let me weigh and see what the damage is to get me motivated...well I weighed...and not by much but I am less now than I have been since I have started this diet. Seriously?! How is it I can work so hard and barely lose a thing and eat horribly and lose! Makes no sense! Maybe I was at a plateau and didn't realize it and eating so bad jeered me right back on track. Either way, I will take it...onward & upward and looking forward to a better day today!!!!

Weigh In: Week 5

I am much a happier about this weeks weigh-in. I am still off about .2 pounds of where I originally was a few weeks ago but I will take it! I had a total loss this week of -3.8! I just hate I had to lose that weight TWICE so going to try really hard not to have a week that I gain so bad again! So that brings me to my 5 week total of:

It's JUST A Number! :)

Love This!

Blog Slacker!!!

I know no one reads this but me but I feel bad when I slack! For two reasons, one it makes me accountable even if it is just to myself and two on the off chance I would hate for someone to stumble across this blog that might need a little encouragement and think well she just quit too so why should I even try! So here we go...

As you know from my last weigh-in I ate horribly the week before last. This week hasn't been too much better but all in all MOST days I stayed under my calorie intake so we will see if I am back down to at least the -15.2 tomorrow. I am ready to get to at least -16 and stay there (and lose more of course) and not be stuck at this dreaded weight anymore.

We took my little brother out for his birthday last night and the pictures of me were HORRIBLE. Bad thing is I have lost a little weight but that being said you can't even tell in the photos...I look like Mrs. Potato Head! That does NOT work for me! I REFUSE to stay looking like that!

So I told Brian this morning...I am still sticking to the 1200 calories but I think what I am going to try to do now is shakes during the day and for the next week mainly do chicken, brown rice & veggies. I know I keep changing up my plan but the way I feel about it as long as I keep sticking to something (mainly the 1200 calories) and keep trying day after day that is all that matters! 

So my NEW plan is each Sunday or Monday to just set a goal for the WEEK. So that is what I am doing today...shakes morning/lunch, drink water! (definitely have slacked the past few weeks!) and try to walk a minimum of 1 1/2 miles even if I can't make or don't have time for my whole 3 miles 5-6 nights this week. I will "allow" myself so I don't feel like I am cheating...a fiber one bar or some kind of 100 calorie snack if I "have" to have one and some chicken broth soup in the afternoon if I have to have it!

So that is my game plan for now....off to fix a BIG glass of water! Will see ya in the morning or the week 5 weigh in!

Weigh-In: Week 4

I wasn't going to weigh-in at all this week because of how bad I did but I remembered accountability! Needless to say, I have done HORRIBLE since the Super Bowl. I went against my better judgment and let it be a cheat day. I started out the first two weeks of this diets as shakes only and lots of water. On week three I still did lots of water, some shakes, still did my walking and ate a few meals but kept it under my calories. I had weighed in the morning of the Super Bowl (a day early) and had lost a total of -15.2 for the first three weeks. The day after the Super Bowl I weighed and I had gained 3 lbs! I could tell I was "swollen" from the sodium of everything and just felt blah. I took a few days to get over that & was doing pretty good for the most part...through the week I weighed and had lost 2 of the 3 lbs. Fast forward to this past Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I was around the house other than running Baylee around all three days. There were teenagers here from Friday night until Sunday and I just didn't feel up to grocery shopping. Instead, I ate all the "not so good" for me food all weekend. Last night, we ended up eating Mexican when Brian came home from drill because I knew I blew it anyway. Since Monday or Tuesday of this week (even though through Thursday I ate pretty good) I had not had any water or exercised. Soooo....brings me to this morning...I feel bloated & constipated (yes TMI but just being truthful). I have gained +4 of my -15.2 lbs back. Yikes! I knew it would be bad but at least not as bad as I was thinking. So my game plan is to "mainly" shake this week, bring my water & exercise in. Next week on weigh-in day I will decide my plan for that week. So my four week total loss:

Not happy about that but at least the -11.2 was real loss and I didn't gain it all back. Just gives me insight on if I want it I have to dedicate!

He's Back...

This is the little guy that Traci created way back when we first starting blogging. He represents just an okay day. Just as Traci said in that post...there is hardly ever just black and white...sometimes we have some grey. That is definitely what today has been for me. I haven't had any "official" exercise but spent the whole day running around cleaning. I haven't eaten great but for the first time probably ever (on purpose anyway) I made un-sweet tea to drink and plan on using Sweet & Low. It actually has tasted pretty good. We put A LOT of sugar in our gallon of tea. Almost 2 cups! So I put about 3/4 cup in the pitcher and then when I fixed my glass it wasn't sweet enough for me so I added the sweetener and "voila!" it was perfect. So that is going to be my good. So as you see I had both positive and negatives today but I am going to keep on keeping on! Have a blessed weekend! 

Say What?!

So this week I haven't done so well! I haven't exercised the past two days...even though I started Monday off hardcore! I have GOT to get back on it today. We have been so busy this week but that is no excuse to stop all together. We did take a "casual' walk through a local botanical garden yesterday but hardly the same as the 30 day shred I am supposed to be doing or the 3-mile-a-day walk!

I started off the week bad on Sunday not eating so good at the Super Bowl party. Then I did fairly good both Monday & Tuesday with food. Yesterday, was a good friend's birthday and where they picked to go was definitely not on the diet and a type of place you can't order anything healthy. Everything is fried or made with fat and they only have about 6 things on the menu and that doesn't include a salad! So this morning my stomach is definitely not liking me!

It makes me want to blow the diet the rest of the week because I did weigh more this morning than I did on my weigh-in last Sunday when I weighed a day early. Then I thought...okay...even if I don't LOSE this week if I could AT LEAST get back to where I was on Sunday then I would be a happy girl during my weigh-in Monday! So I have four days to "get back on the train"...starting now...and prove to myself I CAN and WILL do this. So this week...the goal is simply just to be back at that -15.2 pounds. If I lose more than that great but if not I will take the -15.2 any day over gaining!

30 Day Shred!!!

What can I say...I love punishment! Okay so not so much! :-) So this morning I started my first day of Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred! You know she totally scares me but she looks awesome so how could I argue with her as just summoned me off the couch into 20 minutes of intense workout! Her DVD breaks it up into 3 levels and she says move on to the next level once you are comfortable with the first. PERSONALLY I will be on level 1 for at least the first 30 days! Heck I might be on it longer! :-) I am "trying" to do level 1 this month, level 2 next month and then level 3 the third month but not going to push myself if I can't get past level 1 for awhile. I had to do a modified version of the "easy" version on level 1 as it is! (They have two other ladies on the DVD and one does an "easy" version and the other does a more "intense" version of level 1 exercises.) I was barely keeping up and realized how out of shape I am and how much my muscles need to be built but I know it will happen! In addition to this I am still going to continue to do my 3 miles a day for 6 days a week and see how it goes! :-)

Weigh-In: Week 3

Well I weighed in a day early this week because I knew I would be eating for the Super Bowl! :)

So we three weight loss....-3.2....for a three week total of:

Food Journals!

I haven't been on point this week with my food (though I have still done good!) so I haven't been good about recording my food journal here but here is what I did:

Monday

5 Shakes

No water! Yikes!

Then I *gulp* had some cornbread that was left over & a sliver of deer steak!

Walked 3 miles

Tuesday

4 Shakes

Cup of chicken broth

3 Glasses of water

Walked 3 miles

Wednesday

3 Shakes

4 glasses of water

Walked 3 miles

Brian was at work and I took Baylee to church. I broke down after the struggle all day & ordered a cheeseburger & fries from Wendy's and a Dr. Pepper. The fries were burnt...gag! Then the Dr. Pepper tasted like syrup (my taste buds are no longer accustomed I suppose!). I hate not quite have the cheeseburger and don't know why I didn't stop sooner because it was awful...SOOOO I pulled over and threw it all in the garbage!!!!!

Thursday

Fiber One Bar

Glass of skim milk

Can of tuna fish with a little Greek seasoning

3 glasses of water

Went to dinner & movie with a friend...we at at McAlister's and ordered from the 5 under 500 calorie dinners. I actually only ate half! All in all a GREAT calorie day!

Friday

2 Shakes

Fiber One Bar

Tortilla with mustard

Can of tuna fish with a little seasoning
I plan to get at least 4 glasses of water in, a 3 mile walk and then hopefully at least another shake!

Diet Detour!

So I guess the good thing about creating our own diet is the fact that you can make changes to it! So I decided to detour a little bit! I did great on the shakes...no cheats for over 2 weeks but was really starting to miss food and felt I could do shakes & try to add a little food in so that is where I am right now. I am shaking AND counting calories depending on the day. I am basically trying to stay at no more than 1200 calories a day and trying to walk 3 miles daily when I can!


So that is where we are! :-) I am still excited though! So far so good! I am weighing in a day early on Sunday because of our Super Bowl party Sunday but then I will get right back on Monday weigh-ins the next week!

Weigh-In: Week 2

It is the dreaded week 2 like talked about on biggest loser so I wasn't expected much loss! So the loss for week 2 is....

-2.4 pounds....bringing the total to:

I am adding in exercise this week and hope this week I can loose -4 and next week the same to hopefully bringing me to a months total of -20!

TG's Daily Total: 1/29/12

5 Shakes

2 Cups of chicken broth (10 calories...lots of sodium! Yikes!)

8 1/2 glasses of water

1 glass of Emergency (Vitamin C lemonade)

Took Zyrtec and Nyquil Daytime/Night time Sinus medicine.

*No "real" exercise but spent about 10/15 minutes coming up with an exercise game plan for tomorrow so did some low cardio for a few minutes.


Also, I cheated today. I made it two weeks and then stinking cheated. Geesh. I was cooking deer steak strips in the crock pot & when I went to stir them I don't know what happened but I had a bite. Next thing I knew I had 3 1/2 inch x 2 inch strips, 2 bite size pieces of deer sausage and a nibble of the corner of cornbread. I have been miserable and mad at myself all day for that. True that the bit I ate probably wasn't even enough to equal 150 calories if that but still made me mad. I also notice that the past two days...I am assuming it is the medicine?...I feel SO much more hungry than usual but have to go ahead and keep taking the meds for at least a few more days until I am 100%. It also proved another thing to me...I am not ready for real food. That is all I could think about all night now! 

TG's Daily Total: 1/28/12

5 Shakes

2 Cups of chicken broth (10 calories...lots of sodium! Yikes!)

7 glasses of water

1 glass of Emergency (Vitamin C lemonade)

1 glass of skim milk with 2 tablespoons of Nesquick

Took Zyrtec and Nyquil Daytime/Night time Sinus medicine.

So I had to add a little broth in this weekend and a few different things because I woke up with the yucks! I have my first "official" clinical of the semester on Tuesday and I HAVE to get better before then! I really am feeling A LOT better today so I plan on pretty much doing the same schedule today and hopefully I am almost 100% better tomorrow!

I *Heart* Cooking

I have always enjoyed cooking to a certain extent but lately my "cooking" obsession has kicked in. I wouldn't necessarily say I am a "great" cook but I do like to experiment and try new things! I have been watching what I eat and in the process have been watching a lot of things about food and it has intrigued me. I am still sticking to my diet but have enjoyed cooking for my family. Funny enough for the first time I attempted an omelet for Baylee's breakfast yesterday. It actually turned out pretty well! I have a few things I am going to do different next time but I was pretty impressed with myself. I get to thinking that a lot of our "smarts" regarding how to cook things we learn as we get older and based on time we spend in the kitchen. I also think the fact that my kitchen is a little more organized than it has been in a long time helps me stay in there more. The positive of this is eventually I will apply my "smarts" I am learning about healthy eating to my cooking AND I am saving my family money by not eating out. It costs us almost $30 to eat fast food these days! You add in the bonus of family time at the table and you have a winner! So get in your kitchen and get to cooking!