Sunday, June 03, 2012

PCSing: Reserve Style!

For the non-military PCS stands for "Permanent Change of Station"...which is kind of a strange term to me because the change of station is very rarely "permanent" but anywho....

Usually when you hear PCS you think of the active duty side of the military but not always the case. There are different orders that the reserve half can get that makes it very similar to PCSing on the active duty side. They hubby made E7 just a few months ago and now they unit he has been at since 2004 no longer has a spot for him so orders were cut for him to go to another unit in which he was not crazy about.

Now our family is considering taking on an active duty position. Two have been offered up to him over the past two years but it was never the time. The two places were in North Carolina and Jacksonville, FL. Both places were offered before he made E7 so we are not 100% sure how things will work out now that he has advanced. If these don't work out there are others (for instance Charleston, South Carolina - and other places I am not sure if I would be willing to go yet!).

Our family has prayed & decided that we feel a move to Jacksonville, FL would be a good change of pace for us. We have spoken to our family about it and they are being very supportive. We DO NOT want to leave forever but for a few years it would be nice. Money is a huge factor in going but not the only one. It puts us closer to some of our best friends that we don't see often enough. It also puts us closer to my dad and to my sister in law. It is closer to the beach and we have researched the schools & churches and think there are some good options for our family. 

Right now we are in a holding pattern waiting to hear if we can go there or not! It is so annoying to finally have all three of us and our families on board and not know! :/ Anyone in the military will tell you that is the military life. The hubby hasn't spoken to anyone that "calls the shots" at the new unit yet so sending up prayers and keeping fingers crossed that we find out this week something! I would be disappointed if it was a no but at least it could give us the option to start looking at other places. I hate to even research other options until we know it is a "yay" or "nay" in Jacksonville, FL.

I will update once we know more! I hope once we do move (if it is in God's will!) to use this blog to keep our family updated with our little life! :)

I got a J-O-B!

I am so excited! I applied at the VA hospital as a student nurse tech earlier in the year and I got the job! I start tomorrow and have two weeks worth orientation. I am excited and hope that this helps me out in the future of looking for a nursing job! :) I am excited to work with the patients! I will update on how it goes...soon! :)

Cruise Baby Cruise

After all the hype of everyone's stories of cruises we were so excited! All in all, we had a decent time. It was fun but still probably not as "exciting" as we expected. I know A LOT of people LOVE cruises so this is nothing at all against them but to Brian and I we wouldn't list it as one of our top vacations. I just think it is kind of like the difference between people who like the mountains and those that like the beach...nothing personal but just a preference. :) The food was okay...there was not really anything we could just brag about. The entertainment on our cruse was amusing but I wouldn't say it was the highlight of the trip. It felt more like we were being "babysat" while on the boat versus entertained. The port of calls were okay but they shuttle you through these gift shops and when you get through those...and the whole time you are in port...people are constantly trying to get you to buy something. I think we will try it again one day but if we do it will probably be through Royal Caribbean because we saw their boat "Oasis" and it looks amazing! We promised we would take Baylee on a cruise so it will probably be that one...that way we can try it and take her on the same trip in case we don't ever want to cruise again we can knock out two birds with one stone. :) OH...I also heard Disney Cruises are great so I would love to try one of those if the Royal Caribbean one works out. :)

C25K! :)

Well the vacation didn't turn out so well....as in I ended up getting food poisoning that led to colitis! Needless to say, I ended up losing a few pounds while on vacation and the week following! I am finally feeling better but tomorrow I start a new job and not sure how the food thing will play in so my biggest two things this week are water and exercise. I HAVE GOT to get better with drinking water which is an ongoing battle with me. As far as exercise...I have decided to try the C25K (Couch to 5K) route which brings me to the title of this post. :)


Brian and I did a walk/run 5K a little over a year ago and I have always wanted to do more but haven't. I decided I need to be exercising anyway so why not get motivated and take the next 8 weeks of my life before I start back school in August and train with the C25K program. It basically gets you to jog a 5K in 8 weeks by adding in a little bit of jogging each week and less and less walking. We shall she how it goes. I will do it Mon/Wed/Fri starting tomorrow. I will have to try to blog about it each of the nights. I have to do more research to see what kind of exercise I do or don't need to do the days I am not doing the C25K! 

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Vacation Game Plan!

The hubby and I have never had a honeymoon so (after almost 12 years of marriage!) we are going on a cruise next week! I am so excited! These next few days I am going to try to do better on my diet....drink tons of water mainly because I feel so swollen! I know that there will be tons of food on the cruise but other than just the usual walking/swimming we will be doing all day everyday I also plan to:

  1. Drink diet drinks and not the real stuff
  2. Drink un-sweet tea
  3. DEPENDING on how the water is I will try to have a few glasses a day
  4. Walk a minimum of 1 mile for "exercise" each day (in addition to the walking we will be doing)
  5. I am going to try to login to my fitness pal at least two times while I am gone. :)
Here we goooooo......

Don't Change What Works!

It has been so long since I have posted here. I didn't realize I would miss it. I started using my fitness pal which has been great but I feel like I need to write things out here as well! It is like I felt more accountable to put it here on a public journal. So here I am...making no promises as to how often but I am here...so to catch you up!

A few weeks ago my family came in from Arkansas. My cousin Traci and I (You can see some of her older posts on the sidebar) again talked about our journey of losing weight. For the first time in a long time we were able to spend some alone time to talk this out ... this weight loss thing ... and I did...and still do...feel more motivated. I STILL want it. It is constantly in the back of my mind. It is important to both of us and I know it will take some time but as long as week keep working towards the goal I KNOW we will get there!

These past few weeks I haven't done as good as usual but I realized there were several key things I wasn't doing that I did before when I had success. Here they are:

  • I have not been getting my water in! I think this has been the number one key thing!
  • I have not been journaling regularly. I have been documenting on my fitness pal each day which is great but I need to journal a few times a week here as well...accountability!
  • Exercise...I wasn't doing anything but walking...and getting my house cleaner than usual because I was more active but since I have been out of school I have been some kind of lazy! :/ Brian says I just bottomed out and I guess that is okay, too. So back to more moving around!
  • Diet Drinks - I had done so good about them but here lately I haven't done good at all! I just kind of drink what I want but gotta get back at not drinking the "real" stuff and make diet drinks be the new"real" stuff. I have to remind myself if I am thirsty enough I will drink what is there.
  • The last thing I have done is just not saying "no". For instance, if someone asks me to go out to eat with them I feel obligated. The scale nor the wallet can handle that kind of pressure! Gotta get with it!
So...here we go...back to those things and a reminder to Don't Change What Works!!!!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

No News Is Good News

I haven't blogged in awhile but there is still that part of me that likes to hold on to this blog as my online journal even if no one reads it. I could advertise more especially to family & friends but it really isn't about the audience to me as much as it is about just the knowing I can come here to say what is on my mind!

For now, no new "news". I am finishing up my third semester of nursing school, Baylee finishing up middle school and Brian has a few months before he is 100% done with paramedic school! Things have been stressful but thankfully we are going on a cruise in less than three weeks. We didn't really need to spend the money but boy oh boy do we need a break!

Well back to studying! I have my last chapter test tomorrow and my final next week! I will try to do a post about my third semester journey...after I see that final grade! :)

Continuance

Continuance - the act or instance of continuance.

I almost titled this post "starting over" but I decided that doesn't accurately reflect where I am in this journey. I have strayed away for a few months now but today I am "continuing" where I left off. Yes, I have gained a few of the lost pounds back but not all so I will continue to lose weight! Yes, I slipped off the wagon but now I will continue with the same focused mindset that I had before!

Let's do this!!!!!!

Monday, March 05, 2012

Weigh-In: Week 7

No excuses but the last couple of weeks have been crazy and to be honest I really haven't "tried" to do better these last few weeks...not as hard as I should have anyway. I have still stayed away from "regular" sodas & sweet tea which is a biggie for me. I have also done a "little" better about food but not as good as I should have. I can't tell you the last time I had some water & I haven't exercised in weeks. That being said...this week I am mainly focusing on my water intake & getting back on track with my exercise since those are things I have made the smallest effort to do. Next week, I will add in being a little more strict on my diet. I have 18 more pounds I want to lose before our cruise in 69 days so I better get with it! Unfortunately, I am back up 3 pounds from when I started and now after seven weeks I am just at a loss of:




I have two words to say to that...GAME ON!


P.S. I haven't blogged since last Monday....gotta get back on that...makes me feel more motivated!

Monday, February 27, 2012

Weigh-In: Week 6

Well, I guess I am going to keep gaining and losing this one pound if I don't get on top of things. I didn't expect to lose big after the week I had. It was so stressful and I bombed my first test in a year so wasn't real motivated to eat well. This weekend I had to hit the reset button & just chill-out. Brian & I had Longhorn Friday night, Saturday I had a shake & snacked during the day & me and the girls had Bonsai Saturday night. On Sunday, we ate Mexican for lunch, Bop's Custard for afternoon dessert, leftover Mexican for dinner, boiled peanuts & some starbursts chews. Needless to say, I am glad I didn't gain more! So here is my six week total:


Sunday, February 26, 2012

I Know What I Want To Be When I Grow Up!

Can you believe it? I actually know what I want to be when I grow up! :-) It has ONLY taken me almost 33 years! As you can see from my other posts, I am in nursing school! I was trying to do a nursing school Vlog and will probably update it eventually but anyone who has been in nursing school will tell you how little time you have to do anything...even if it is something you really enjoy! That is a story for another day!


I may or may not have mentioned it before but I have wanted to do travel nursing for a long time. I also would love to teach...and work with veterans and I have a passion for wanting to work in the mission field! That being said...I want to be a nurse in the medical missionary field.  Yup...that is what I want to do one day.


I would love to work at the VA to work with Veterans. When Baylee graduates I would like to become a travel nurse & perhaps when I get tired of traveling I would like to teach nursing. However, I would LOVE to volunteer in the medical missionary field as often as I can in between travel nursing and/or school semesters if I am teaching!


Feels good to FINALLY "know". 

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Humor in Weight-Loss



I started out this week sooooo well! Then on Tuesday I was rushing to clinical and didn't have time to grab breakfast. I grabbed a 90 calorie fiber bar and some water. I was soooo hungry by the time I got home and Brian had made lunch (I was supposed to shake for lunch). It was red beans & rice made with deer sausage & brown rice. I felt I had eaten "too much" rice...it was a BIG bowl and said we would just shake for dinner and I would fix Baylee something since I needed to be studying for my test. Well as dinner time got closer & since Brian was coming home from school early I broke down & ordered a pizza and I am not even a "pizza" person! So I had two slices of pizza and 3 or 4 buffalo wings. I did at least drink water (with "Mio") both times. I thought...okay...tomorrow I have to get on it!


Woke up yesterday morning...started out with TWO pop tarts. LOL Not good I know but only had three hours of sleep because of studying for a test. Went to school...was miserable after I took my test since I am pretty sure I bombed it...and went through McDonald's and got a fish sandwich (observing lent), medium fries and a diet coke. My "pouting" got worse and I started feeling bad through the day. Didn't really want anything I had here and wasn't going to church because I was so sleepy and my head hurt (on top of pouting about my test!). So I decided I needed to order something else "meat free" and ultimately decided on load fries (without bacon) from Steak Escape. Ordered that and a diet coke. LOL WAIT...there is more...so sitting in line I look over and see Zaxby's and think...mmm....they have great milkshakes. SOOO got my fries/drink and went to Zaxby's and got a shake & fried mushrooms! After I ate that stuff I said to myself..."Self, you know you are going to have to confess all this tomorrow."


Fast forward to this morning, I woke up and decided okay let me weigh and see what the damage is to get me motivated...well I weighed...and not by much but I am less now than I have been since I have started this diet. Seriously?! How is it I can work so hard and barely lose a thing and eat horribly and lose! Makes no sense! Maybe I was at a plateau and didn't realize it and eating so bad jeered me right back on track. Either way, I will take it...onward & upward and looking forward to a better day today!!!!

Monday, February 20, 2012

Weigh In: Week 5

I am much a happier about this weeks weigh-in. I am still off about .2 pounds of where I originally was a few weeks ago but I will take it! I had a total loss this week of -3.8! I just hate I had to lose that weight TWICE so going to try really hard not to have a week that I gain so bad again! So that brings me to my 5 week total of:


Sunday, February 19, 2012

It's JUST A Number! :)

Love This!



Blog Slacker!!!

I know no one reads this but me but I feel bad when I slack! For two reasons, one it makes me accountable even if it is just to myself and two on the off chance I would hate for someone to stumble across this blog that might need a little encouragement and think well she just quit too so why should I even try! So here we go...

As you know from my last weigh-in I ate horribly the week before last. This week hasn't been too much better but all in all MOST days I stayed under my calorie intake so we will see if I am back down to at least the -15.2 tomorrow. I am ready to get to at least -16 and stay there (and lose more of course) and not be stuck at this dreaded weight anymore.

We took my little brother out for his birthday last night and the pictures of me were HORRIBLE. Bad thing is I have lost a little weight but that being said you can't even tell in the photos...I look like Mrs. Potato Head! That does NOT work for me! I REFUSE to stay looking like that!

So I told Brian this morning...I am still sticking to the 1200 calories but I think what I am going to try to do now is shakes during the day and for the next week mainly do chicken, brown rice & veggies. I know I keep changing up my plan but the way I feel about it as long as I keep sticking to something (mainly the 1200 calories) and keep trying day after day that is all that matters! 

So my NEW plan is each Sunday or Monday to just set a goal for the WEEK. So that is what I am doing today...shakes morning/lunch, drink water! (definitely have slacked the past few weeks!) and try to walk a minimum of 1 1/2 miles even if I can't make or don't have time for my whole 3 miles 5-6 nights this week. I will "allow" myself so I don't feel like I am cheating...a fiber one bar or some kind of 100 calorie snack if I "have" to have one and some chicken broth soup in the afternoon if I have to have it!

So that is my game plan for now....off to fix a BIG glass of water! Will see ya in the morning or the week 5 weigh in!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Weigh-In: Week 4

I wasn't going to weigh-in at all this week because of how bad I did but I remembered accountability! Needless to say, I have done HORRIBLE since the Super Bowl. I went against my better judgment and let it be a cheat day. I started out the first two weeks of this diets as shakes only and lots of water. On week three I still did lots of water, some shakes, still did my walking and ate a few meals but kept it under my calories. I had weighed in the morning of the Super Bowl (a day early) and had lost a total of -15.2 for the first three weeks. The day after the Super Bowl I weighed and I had gained 3 lbs! I could tell I was "swollen" from the sodium of everything and just felt blah. I took a few days to get over that & was doing pretty good for the most part...through the week I weighed and had lost 2 of the 3 lbs. Fast forward to this past Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I was around the house other than running Baylee around all three days. There were teenagers here from Friday night until Sunday and I just didn't feel up to grocery shopping. Instead, I ate all the "not so good" for me food all weekend. Last night, we ended up eating Mexican when Brian came home from drill because I knew I blew it anyway. Since Monday or Tuesday of this week (even though through Thursday I ate pretty good) I had not had any water or exercised. Soooo....brings me to this morning...I feel bloated & constipated (yes TMI but just being truthful). I have gained +4 of my -15.2 lbs back. Yikes! I knew it would be bad but at least not as bad as I was thinking. So my game plan is to "mainly" shake this week, bring my water & exercise in. Next week on weigh-in day I will decide my plan for that week. So my four week total loss:


Not happy about that but at least the -11.2 was real loss and I didn't gain it all back. Just gives me insight on if I want it I have to dedicate!

Friday, February 10, 2012

He's Back...



This is the little guy that Traci created way back when we first starting blogging. He represents just an okay day. Just as Traci said in that post...there is hardly ever just black and white...sometimes we have some grey. That is definitely what today has been for me. I haven't had any "official" exercise but spent the whole day running around cleaning. I haven't eaten great but for the first time probably ever (on purpose anyway) I made un-sweet tea to drink and plan on using Sweet & Low. It actually has tasted pretty good. We put A LOT of sugar in our gallon of tea. Almost 2 cups! So I put about 3/4 cup in the pitcher and then when I fixed my glass it wasn't sweet enough for me so I added the sweetener and "voila!" it was perfect. So that is going to be my good. So as you see I had both positive and negatives today but I am going to keep on keeping on! Have a blessed weekend! 

Thursday, February 09, 2012

Say What?!

So this week I haven't done so well! I haven't exercised the past two days...even though I started Monday off hardcore! I have GOT to get back on it today. We have been so busy this week but that is no excuse to stop all together. We did take a "casual' walk through a local botanical garden yesterday but hardly the same as the 30 day shred I am supposed to be doing or the 3-mile-a-day walk!

I started off the week bad on Sunday not eating so good at the Super Bowl party. Then I did fairly good both Monday & Tuesday with food. Yesterday, was a good friend's birthday and where they picked to go was definitely not on the diet and a type of place you can't order anything healthy. Everything is fried or made with fat and they only have about 6 things on the menu and that doesn't include a salad! So this morning my stomach is definitely not liking me!

It makes me want to blow the diet the rest of the week because I did weigh more this morning than I did on my weigh-in last Sunday when I weighed a day early. Then I thought...okay...even if I don't LOSE this week if I could AT LEAST get back to where I was on Sunday then I would be a happy girl during my weigh-in Monday! So I have four days to "get back on the train"...starting now...and prove to myself I CAN and WILL do this. So this week...the goal is simply just to be back at that -15.2 pounds. If I lose more than that great but if not I will take the -15.2 any day over gaining!

Monday, February 06, 2012

30 Day Shred!!!

What can I say...I love punishment! Okay so not so much! :-) So this morning I started my first day of Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred! You know she totally scares me but she looks awesome so how could I argue with her as just summoned me off the couch into 20 minutes of intense workout! Her DVD breaks it up into 3 levels and she says move on to the next level once you are comfortable with the first. PERSONALLY I will be on level 1 for at least the first 30 days! Heck I might be on it longer! :-) I am "trying" to do level 1 this month, level 2 next month and then level 3 the third month but not going to push myself if I can't get past level 1 for awhile. I had to do a modified version of the "easy" version on level 1 as it is! (They have two other ladies on the DVD and one does an "easy" version and the other does a more "intense" version of level 1 exercises.) I was barely keeping up and realized how out of shape I am and how much my muscles need to be built but I know it will happen! In addition to this I am still going to continue to do my 3 miles a day for 6 days a week and see how it goes! :-)

Weigh-In: Week 3

Well I weighed in a day early this week because I knew I would be eating for the Super Bowl! :)
So we three weight loss....-3.2....for a three week total of:


Friday, February 03, 2012

Food Journals!

I haven't been on point this week with my food (though I have still done good!) so I haven't been good about recording my food journal here but here is what I did:

Monday
5 Shakes
No water! Yikes!
Then I *gulp* had some cornbread that was left over & a sliver of deer steak!
Walked 3 miles

Tuesday
4 Shakes
Cup of chicken broth
3 Glasses of water
Walked 3 miles

Wednesday
3 Shakes
4 glasses of water
Walked 3 miles
Brian was at work and I took Baylee to church. I broke down after the struggle all day & ordered a cheeseburger & fries from Wendy's and a Dr. Pepper. The fries were burnt...gag! Then the Dr. Pepper tasted like syrup (my taste buds are no longer accustomed I suppose!). I hate not quite have the cheeseburger and don't know why I didn't stop sooner because it was awful...SOOOO I pulled over and threw it all in the garbage!!!!!

Thursday
Fiber One Bar
Glass of skim milk
Can of tuna fish with a little Greek seasoning
3 glasses of water
Went to dinner & movie with a friend...we at at McAlister's and ordered from the 5 under 500 calorie dinners. I actually only ate half! All in all a GREAT calorie day!

Friday
2 Shakes
Fiber One Bar
Tortilla with mustard
Can of tuna fish with a little seasoning
I plan to get at least 4 glasses of water in, a 3 mile walk and then hopefully at least another shake!

Diet Detour!



So I guess the good thing about creating our own diet is the fact that you can make changes to it! So I decided to detour a little bit! I did great on the shakes...no cheats for over 2 weeks but was really starting to miss food and felt I could do shakes & try to add a little food in so that is where I am right now. I am shaking AND counting calories depending on the day. I am basically trying to stay at no more than 1200 calories a day and trying to walk 3 miles daily when I can!


So that is where we are! :-) I am still excited though! So far so good! I am weighing in a day early on Sunday because of our Super Bowl party Sunday but then I will get right back on Monday weigh-ins the next week!

Monday, January 30, 2012

Weigh-In: Week 2

It is the dreaded week 2 like talked about on biggest loser so I wasn't expected much loss! So the loss for week 2 is....

-2.4 pounds....bringing the total to:


I am adding in exercise this week and hope this week I can loose -4 and next week the same to hopefully bringing me to a months total of -20!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

TG's Daily Total: 1/29/12

5 Shakes
2 Cups of chicken broth (10 calories...lots of sodium! Yikes!)
8 1/2 glasses of water
1 glass of Emergency (Vitamin C lemonade)

Took Zyrtec and Nyquil Daytime/Night time Sinus medicine.

*No "real" exercise but spent about 10/15 minutes coming up with an exercise game plan for tomorrow so did some low cardio for a few minutes.


Also, I cheated today. I made it two weeks and then stinking cheated. Geesh. I was cooking deer steak strips in the crock pot & when I went to stir them I don't know what happened but I had a bite. Next thing I knew I had 3 1/2 inch x 2 inch strips, 2 bite size pieces of deer sausage and a nibble of the corner of cornbread. I have been miserable and mad at myself all day for that. True that the bit I ate probably wasn't even enough to equal 150 calories if that but still made me mad. I also notice that the past two days...I am assuming it is the medicine?...I feel SO much more hungry than usual but have to go ahead and keep taking the meds for at least a few more days until I am 100%. It also proved another thing to me...I am not ready for real food. That is all I could think about all night now! 

TG's Daily Total: 1/28/12

5 Shakes
2 Cups of chicken broth (10 calories...lots of sodium! Yikes!)
7 glasses of water
1 glass of Emergency (Vitamin C lemonade)
1 glass of skim milk with 2 tablespoons of Nesquick

Took Zyrtec and Nyquil Daytime/Night time Sinus medicine.

So I had to add a little broth in this weekend and a few different things because I woke up with the yucks! I have my first "official" clinical of the semester on Tuesday and I HAVE to get better before then! I really am feeling A LOT better today so I plan on pretty much doing the same schedule today and hopefully I am almost 100% better tomorrow!

I *Heart* Cooking

I have always enjoyed cooking to a certain extent but lately my "cooking" obsession has kicked in. I wouldn't necessarily say I am a "great" cook but I do like to experiment and try new things! I have been watching what I eat and in the process have been watching a lot of things about food and it has intrigued me. I am still sticking to my diet but have enjoyed cooking for my family. Funny enough for the first time I attempted an omelet for Baylee's breakfast yesterday. It actually turned out pretty well! I have a few things I am going to do different next time but I was pretty impressed with myself. I get to thinking that a lot of our "smarts" regarding how to cook things we learn as we get older and based on time we spend in the kitchen. I also think the fact that my kitchen is a little more organized than it has been in a long time helps me stay in there more. The positive of this is eventually I will apply my "smarts" I am learning about healthy eating to my cooking AND I am saving my family money by not eating out. It costs us almost $30 to eat fast food these days! You add in the bonus of family time at the table and you have a winner! So get in your kitchen and get to cooking!

Saturday, January 28, 2012

TG's Daily Total: 1/27/13

Meals: 6 Shakes

Water: 4 Glasses

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Friday, January 27, 2012

Bittersweet Week

I am so fortunate that I am in nursing school because I know there are lots of people that can't afford to be or have applied and can't get in. This week has been exhausting and I am not sure why! We have only been in this semester three weeks and it already feels like a lifetime! I think it just caught up with us so fast!

We also had a couple of ladies this week who didn't pass their third round of their math test who face having to leave the program. They are so smart and will make great nurses but nerves just got the best of them. It has been hard because I know what they are going through adn it is a horrible feeling. I am hoping that the ones that make the deciscions provide them mercy today but I also know it is in God's hands and he has a plan for everyone!

It was also bittersweet because the hospital we toured yesterday I had three friends have babies there. One friend no longer lives here and I miss her! The other I am still friends with but we just don't talk very often because of life circumstances & sadly seems we drifted some but hopefully that isn't the case! The third is hard to explain really...I don't really know what happended to us tho I have said my sorry's and forgave them even without them asking and feel like we are at a clean slate but our relationship just has no momentum right now so I am not sure if that is a God thing or what but I will continue to pray about it. Truthfully, God takes people in and out of our lives for a reason and if they are meant to be back in our lives it will happen and if not then we can only remember the good times.

Well....guess I better get off of her....gotta get up and get a few things done because we are going with Baylee's Show Choir on a field trip today to an out of town competition and won't be back until late tonight! I am going to try to record the show and will post here later!

Happy Friday everyone!

My First NSV's!!!!

For those of you that don't know...NSV is a weight loss term...I believe coined from Weight Watcher members which means "Non-Scale Victory". A NSV is something that happens during weight loss that you notice different and/or above & beyond what you notice on the scale.

I had mentioned before that I had a few things good happen to me...such as the breathing better, feeling better, etc. The first week I was on the diet my friend's daughter told her mom, "Mrs. Tiffany looks like she lost some weight." My daughter has said the same and I just chalked it up to they knew I was dieting so didn't say much about it.

This week I had a pair of jeans that was so loose I could take off without even buttoning; however, those jeans have always fit me loose because of the material of them so thought okay well maybe I am just "making" it seem greater than it really is.

Last night I had to change out of my clinical clothes to regular clothes to go to bunco. I decided to put on a pair of my jeans I haven't worn too recently. They have a "inner button" and then the regular button. Last time I wore them I had to lay on the bed to button the inner button, they were tight, miserable and I could only wear certain shirts with them that wouldn't show my fat rolls so bad!

Weeelllll...I went over to my closet, pulled them out and THEN...pulled them right up easy breezy without any of the twisting & turning...DRUMROLL.........I then was able to button BOTH buttons without a struggle AT ALL! Once I got them on they were just lose enough to pull up and hide my top fat roll. Don't get me wrong they weren't what you would consider "loose" by any means but the most important thing is they FIT!!!! Second, my friends mom was at bunco who had not seen me in awhile & had no idea I was dieting and she said I looked like I lost weight!!! I was so excited I had to get up and hug her.

This week my husband, out of nowhere, driving down the road puts his hand on my should and says he is proud of me for working so hard and sticking to it, etc.

It is these kinds of things and just the little results that help me keep going even though I sometimes want to quit! Just last night I had a dream I cheated and I was devastated so I WILL NOT be doing that anytime soon!!!!!

**UPDATE** So after I typed this I was kind of being lazy around the house waiting on my husband to come home from work. When I heard the door open I jumped up to go say hello...I just had on a t-shirt (no pants) since I was about to shower and he says...the person that never notices anything...your legs look like they have gotten smaller. Yay!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Working Through It

Today I haven't been as "upbeat" about my diet. I haven't cheated or wanted to cheap but still not very "excited" about it. I think some of it is that I am stressed about money, I am tired, my back hurts from sitting in class and it is cloudy today! It HIT me on the way home when I mentally thought about something I would like to snack on when I get home that all these things (stress, tired, mood) immediately made me just to "thinking" I needed to eat. Pre-life change I would have come home and eaten all kinds of things but I didn't. I was so proud that I was able to "notice" why I was wanting that food.

Last night, I cooked my family a whole meal and didn't even "try" it. I am able to "smell" and notice things more when it comes to food. 

I have also implemented something I am calling "Netflix" therapy.I have been watching any little documentary I can about weight loss, exercise and healthy eating/fasting, etc.

The Time Is NOW

I was looking at my calendar this morning and I cannot believe that I am in my third week of my last year of nursing school. Really when you look at it I have less than a year because we graduate in December and we don't have class during the summer months! It is amazing how much has changed in my life in 3 weeks! I am back in school, the hubby is back in school and of course my daughter is back in the second part of 8th grade. I have been doing a diet...no not diet...but a "life change". I have made grade progress and my motivation is unbelievable at this point. I have never been this dedicated this far in the game! We are trying to catch up on bills but have some things coming down the pipe that will help that fall into place! Also, my house has been some kind of clean lately and I am working very hard on my organizing projects. All this may seem minor to some but these are huge areas in my life that I always struggle with and the fact that it is all going semi-smooth is Ahhh-Mazing! I only have one person - GOD! - to thank for that because I know through him all things are possible! I look forward to looking back a year from now and thinking...WOW...I REALLY did it this time!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

TG's Daily Total: 1/24/12

4 Shakes
4 Glasses of water


First, today was a crazy busy long day at school! I came home & filed our taxes and then fixed Brian/Baylee dinner. I got busy doing other things and by the time I realized it I hadn't drank my water and missed dinner but then it got too late & I wasn't really starving so I was like forget it. Hopefully it won't bite me in the booty!

TG's Daily Total: 1/23/12

6 Shakes
8 Glasses of water


Everything else...nada!


Energy off the charts!!!!

Monday, January 23, 2012

Nursing School Continues!

Long time no post as you see! Well I am still in nursing school. I am in my third semester of my adn program. It is very hard & time consuming but I am still loving it and I know this is exactly what I was meant to do. I am just trying to stay focused and trying to be more organized. I know this isn't a lot of information but I will try my hardest to have something else on this site soon! :-)

Weird Water!!



I make no bones about the fact that I am NOT a water person normally. Being on my new "life change" and hopefully for the rest of my life I am trying really hard to "get addicted" to water. Okay so not in the sense of the people in a mental institution who drink so much they get drunk off it but you get the idea. *grin* I have noticed I am very weird about my water.


When I very first started this diet I had to "gag' down the water. I had to add the Ocean Spray packets (just like the more popular Crystal Lite ones but I prefer Ocean Spray). I would put it in my water bottles and get after it. Then I would get burnt out and drink it just plain in a cup of ice but I can taste the "plastic" hose taste in the ice when I drink it plain (from the ice maker). I tried the drink it fast through the straw fix. All of these things were okay for a bit then I got burnt out. My newest thing is I bought a bottle of smart water & after I finished off I keep refilling it. It has about 4 cups of water per bottle so if I can drink 3 of those today I will be to my goal of 12 cups. 


So maybe this wasn't too informative but I write it to just let everyone know...it doesn't matter HOW you drink your water as long as you keep drinking it! I am sure in a day or so I will get tired of the smart water bottle and move on to something else. Just keep drinking!!!!

TG's Week 1 Recap

I did it! I survived week 1! I even came home from class today and went & weighed (middle of the day, lots of water & my shakes ingested, t-shirt, blue jeans & tennis shoes) and I STILL weighed almost 5 pounds less than I did this same day last week! So here is a food recap (you can see journals below) and a few things I have thought and noticed this week:



  • I did perfect on my shakes all week!
  • I didn't have any cheats all week! Yay!
  • No exercise
  • I did my best to drink all my water every day but some days I just couldn't get close.
  • I noticed when I was sleeping that I could actually breathe and was sleeping with my mouth shut. (In the past 8-10 years I pretty much have to sleep with my mouth somewhat open to be able to breathe!)
  • At school I missed the elevator and went up two sets of stairs to meet up with friends and not until I got to the top did I notice I wasn't even winded! (I haven't even exercised so not sure what that is about?)
  • My tail-bone and knees have been bothering me lately and I just thought as I was typing this how my hip usually hurts and after one week on this diet no pain! I don't know if maybe it is having more water in my system or if it is because of the milk.
  • I have SOOO much energy! You wouldn't think so with the fact that I haven't had solid food in over 7 days now but really I feel GREAT!
:-) Oh Happy Day!

TG's Week 1 Weigh-In

Drummmmm rollll...............




Yay! Lost a total of 9.6 pounds in week 1! I know the other weeks won't be as impressive but it was definitely a good start! Off to school...more later!!!

TG's Daily Total: 1/22/12


Meals: 6 shakes (1200 - Used skim milk.)
1 Ocean Spray water packs (5 Calories)

Water: 7 

Exercise: Nada! :/

TG'S Daily Total: 1/21/12


Meals: 6 shakes (1200 - Used skim milk.)
1 Ocean Spray water packs (5 Calories)

Water: 5 (Uh oh!)

Exercise: Nada! :/

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Weekends & Weight Loss

It is funny that any other time I would enjoy the fact that it is the weekend. When you are dieting that is a whole other story! This weekend hasn't been particularly bad but usually that is the time where we "cook" or have dinner with friends. For instance, we are going to a friends house tomorrow night to have dinner...chili (one of my favorites)...but while everyone is eating I will be sipping on my shake. No fun...no fun...eating all alooonnneee! I will admit that I have been very impressed with my husband who has pretty much been "shaking" with me during the day and only eating dinner at night! That has been a huge help. I have not had a lot of time today to "think" about food because of doing homework and cleaning house. The bad thing is at this point I should have had at least half my water and four shakes. I have had ZERO water today and THREE shakes. I gotta get with it! In the meantime...I am going to share some tips I found in order to stay motivated! (Credit given to http://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/5-weight-loss-motivation-tips-that-work/ for the information below!)

Staying On Track!


Tip 1: Think Slim

This tip is about that all-important moment: What do you experience just before you eat something? Do you tussle with yourself? “I really shouldn’t… but I want to!” Do you imagine how the food will taste, even feel in the mouth? Or do you focus on the real consequences, rather than the temporary satisfactions of eating?
People who are overweight tend to imagine how food is going to taste and feel as they eat. In contrast, people who naturally ‘eat slim’ tend to imagine how that pie or cake will feel heavy in their stomachs for so long after they’ve eaten it. Jumping from a great height might feel fun whilst it lasts, but the consequences that come after we hit the ground are what we consider when deciding not to do it.
So when you’re tempted to eat something you don’t need, practice imagining how your stomach is going to feel ten minutes or an hour after you’ve consumed that weight-increasing food. Keep it up until this becomes a natural habit for you.
Tip 2: Surround yourself with slim people
No, I’m not suggesting you dump all your less-than-slender friends. But research has shown that the average body type of the people with whom you hang out affects yourweight and size (1). Start hanging around with slimmer, fitter types (perhaps at the gym) and your subconscious mind will pick up a new template for what is ‘normal’. Karen started hanging out and socializing with slim types at a jogging club.
Tip 3: Be fair to yourself
Imagine someone walks up a hundred steps but feels a bit tired, so they stop and step back down one step. They tell you bitterly: “Now I may as well forget this whole idea of reaching the top! I’ve totally blown it!”
What?! You’d think that was crazy, right? Acting as if all that progress, the 99 steps they didclimb, never happened – because they had one slip! But people do this all the time when it comes to weight loss.
You lose weight, maybe four or five pounds, maybe much more. But you slip, have a bad day or a ‘weak moment’, and eat something you shouldn’t have. And what do you tell yourself? “I’ve completely blown it! Now I might as well really binge!”
Beware the perfectionism trap. Aim to eat sensibly and healthily most of the time, not all the time. We all consume more than we should of the wrong kind of food or drink now and then.
Everyone’s weight fluctuates a bit and you should prepare for this (once you’ve reached a healthy weight). Have a ‘sliding scale’ in your mind of a couple of pounds on either side of your target weight. No one can live for long under a self-imposed, too harsh dictatorship.
Tip 4: Weight loss is not a cure-all
Sure, being healthier, fitter, and so on will have positive and maybe unexpected ripple effects. However, even as a slimmer person you’ll still have a bad day in the office, moments of self-doubt, or times when you feel undervalued.
Many people feel let down when they become slimmer and then find that being slim doesn’t solve all their problems in one go. They then revert to eating poorly again. Don’t fall into this trap.
You have lots of different needs which need to be fulfilled in life. Being slimmer, healthier, and fitter is just one of them.
Tip 5: Eat when you’re hungry
I know this sounds obvious, but eating sugary foods causes a subsequent crash in energy, leaving you wanting more sweetness. On the other hand, eating for slow energy release is a sustainable way to keep your weight loss motivation firing on all cylinders without you having to consciously think about it. For slow-release energy, eat protein with every meal alongside ‘good carbs’ such as whole grains, vegetables, fruits, and beans. This avoids the ‘crash and burn’ of sugar overdosing.

I found this part (below) very interesting...kinda makes me think about how our choices REALLY DO affect others!:
(1) Having an obese friend dramatically increases the risk of becoming similarly fat, according to a study published in the New England Journal of Medicine. Obesity is ‘socially contagious’, spreading from person to person in a social network, researchers said. The study found that if one person becomes obese, those closely connected to them have a greater chance of becoming obese themselves. Surprisingly, the greatest effect was seen not among people sharing the same genes or household, but among friends.

Friday, January 20, 2012

TG's Daily Journal: 1/20/12


Meals: 6 shakes (1200 - Used skim milk.)
1 Ocean Spray water packs (5 Calories)

Water: 7 1/2

Exercise: Nada! :/

Other: I just really wasn't feeling it today. Did the best I cold tho! At least I didn't cheat! Going to bed now and tummy is growling a bit!

TG's Daily Total: 1/19/12


Meals: 6 shakes (1200 - Used skim milk.)
2 Ocean Spray water packs (10 Calories)

Water: 9 1/2 glasses

Exercise: Nada! :/

Other: Nothing!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Standing Strong!

So far so good! I am coming to the end of my fourth day and so far it has been good! I have really wanted to cave in a few times but I have held strong! I keep telling myself it is worth it...I AM WORTH it!!! So not great inspiration here or awesome words but just I know I can do this...I can, I can, I can...I WILL! Thought I would add an old photo of myself the last time I was "small" as added inspiration!

This photo was taken on "Senior Day" in my last year of high school! I used this photo because I specifically remember this day and remember how embarrassed I was because I felt so "fat" in this dress!!!! Do I look fat? Ummm...if I were to only be "that fat". :-) 


TG's Daily Total: 1/18/12


Meals: 6 shakes (1200 - Used skim milk.)
2 Ocean Spray water packs (10 Calories)

Water: 9 glasses

Exercise: Nada! :/

Other: Nothing!

Same thing two days in a row!

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Redoing My Game Plan!

So far I am actually feeling good! Yesterday I didn't seem to feel as well but today I just feel like I have a lot of energy. I am really not "hungry" at all but lots of things sound good. For instance, I am not even a dorritos fan but Baylee was eating some and I can almost envision how good they would taste. We also have some powdered donuts here but fortunately they haven't sounded good. I dreamed yesterday about eating a pickle and a burger from Krystal. It really is mind over matter I think. I thought I could get something and no one would not the difference but for once I thought...I WOULD. Not to mention one little chip would completely ruin what I am working towards. I keep telling myself I have had over 32 years to eat what I want & like I read on another person's website...the food isn't going anywhere. I can always eat later on when I am healthier and can eat just a small serving of something bad occasionally. I came across a gem of a website about a lady who has been doing OptiFAST (the program I am basing my fast off of). She has said so many informative things. Between reading her website (optifastblog.wordpress.com) and watching the show Traci suggested (Fat, Sick & Nearly Dying) I feel really good about my decision to make this change in my life. I am glad that day three has gone so well and I am in hopes that the rest of the week continues to go just as well!

So my plan redo is this (based on the things I have read):

Month 1: Continue with my shakes/water only for the remainder of my four weeks.

Month 2: Morning slim fast bar/1 cup milk; lunch shake; afternoon snack chicken broth; dinner shake

Month 3: Morning slim fast bar/1 cup milk; lunch shake; afternoon snack chicken broth; dinner 4 oz chicken and 1/2 cup of veggies

Month 4: Morning slim fast bar/1 cup milk; salad; afternoon snack chicken broth; dinner 4 oz chicken and 1/2 cup of veggies


TG's Daily Total: 1/17/12

Meals: 6 shakes (1200 - Used skim milk.)
2 Ocean Spray water packs (10 Calories)

Water: 9 glasses

Exercise: Nada! :/

Other: Nothing other than benadryl & ibuprofen!

I have decided this week & maybe even next week I am not going to stress too much on the exercise. If it happens it happens!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

TG's Daily Total: 1/16/12

Even if I don't get a chance to do this everyday I am going to try to do it as often as possible. As I said before I am doing "shakes" for a month. Might not be the right choice for everyone but this is my "jump-start". On week five I will add in something at breakfast (taking away one of my shakes), week 6 I will add in something at lunch (taking away another shake) and week 7 I will add in something at dinner taking away another shake, week 8 I will add a morning snack (taking away another shake!) and week 9 add an afternoon snack (taking away the final shakes!).

1/16/12

Meals: 6 shakes (1440 Calories)
2 Ocean Spray water packs (10 Calories)

Water: 12 glasses

Exercise: Nada! :/

Other: Multi-vitamin, Vitex Berry (For my female stuff!), hydroxycut (I have one bottle that I have taken before and I am only taking half the dose a day until the bottle runs out to get me used to not eating much each day!)

Monday, January 16, 2012

Prayerfully Losing

WOW...it has been four years since we have used this site! To make matters worse...I haven't even lost/maintained in that time. I have actually PUT ON weight since the very first time we ever posted on this site. I am the biggest I have ever been and when I did my virtual model this morning it wouldn't even go UP to my weight. It is sad, really. I don't know why I just can't manage to lose weight BUT what I do know is it is now time. I have four good motivations this year though:

  1. We are going on our first cruise in May. I want to look better, feel better and most of all be happy to take photos at all the fun places we go!
  2. Brian's college graduation will be late this summer and I don't want to be the "fat" wife. These are photos to keep forever in remembrance of a great day and I don't want to "hate" looking at myself.
  3. My 15 year reunion! I was the "fat" fun & friendly girl at our 10 year reunion and could not find a THING to wear. I want to be able to be cute this time around!
  4. My college graduation! I don't want to look like I am wearing a "moomoo" in my graduation cap & gown!

So what am I doing you ask? Well I know some people will turn their nose up at this but this is important to me. I am one of those people that has to see numbers to keep me motivated. I think in a long time the greatest amount of weight I have lost is maybe 20lbs. (Not sure about this tho...will have to look through old post!) I have worked with attorneys who did the liquid diet thing through a local hospital. I have a friend who has done the Optifast diet. Well I decided I am going along these same lines. I am doing a liquid diet (Brian will monitor my BP, etc. at home.) for the next month. I am going to make sure I meet adequate calories, drink plenty of water and take my vitamins. I am going to get in a gallon of water daily as well as a minimum of 30 minutes of exercise.

After the 30 days, you slowly add in "healthy" foods. I am so embarrassed after weighing this morning that I decided I am not sharing my starting weight with anyone until after my four weeks is up. So on February 13th...I will post my starting weight and my weight after the four weeks. Good or bad...I will post both numbers.

I also put a water tracker on my phone (not getting enough liquids each day is a huge downfall for me!) as well as downloaded a blogger link so I have no excuse to not blog because I can do it straight from my phone! I will now put in my very first virtual model which is not actually my very first starting weight because it won't go that high! I will also try to find some fairly recent starting photos.

Update:

I remembered two other things I want to lose for other than the obvious of being healthy & the things listed above! One is that my friends got a boat late last summer and we will be out on it more and I want to be comfortable when I am out there! Also, our family always goes to the lake in the summer and I want to be ready!