2 Cups of chicken broth (10 calories...lots of sodium! Yikes!)
8 1/2 glasses of water
1 glass of Emergency (Vitamin C lemonade)
Took Zyrtec and Nyquil Daytime/Night time Sinus medicine.
*No "real" exercise but spent about 10/15 minutes coming up with an exercise game plan for tomorrow so did some low cardio for a few minutes.
Also, I cheated today. I made it two weeks and then stinking cheated. Geesh. I was cooking deer steak strips in the crock pot & when I went to stir them I don't know what happened but I had a bite. Next thing I knew I had 3 1/2 inch x 2 inch strips, 2 bite size pieces of deer sausage and a nibble of the corner of cornbread. I have been miserable and mad at myself all day for that. True that the bit I ate probably wasn't even enough to equal 150 calories if that but still made me mad. I also notice that the past two days...I am assuming it is the medicine?...I feel SO much more hungry than usual but have to go ahead and keep taking the meds for at least a few more days until I am 100%. It also proved another thing to me...I am not ready for real food. That is all I could think about all night now!
2 Cups of chicken broth (10 calories...lots of sodium! Yikes!)
7 glasses of water
1 glass of Emergency (Vitamin C lemonade)
1 glass of skim milk with 2 tablespoons of Nesquick
Took Zyrtec and Nyquil Daytime/Night time Sinus medicine.
So I had to add a little broth in this weekend and a few different things because I woke up with the yucks! I have my first "official" clinical of the semester on Tuesday and I HAVE to get better before then! I really am feeling A LOT better today so I plan on pretty much doing the same schedule today and hopefully I am almost 100% better tomorrow!
I have always enjoyed cooking to a certain extent but lately my "cooking" obsession has kicked in. I wouldn't necessarily say I am a "great" cook but I do like to experiment and try new things! I have been watching what I eat and in the process have been watching a lot of things about food and it has intrigued me. I am still sticking to my diet but have enjoyed cooking for my family. Funny enough for the first time I attempted an omelet for Baylee's breakfast yesterday. It actually turned out pretty well! I have a few things I am going to do different next time but I was pretty impressed with myself. I get to thinking that a lot of our "smarts" regarding how to cook things we learn as we get older and based on time we spend in the kitchen. I also think the fact that my kitchen is a little more organized than it has been in a long time helps me stay in there more. The positive of this is eventually I will apply my "smarts" I am learning about healthy eating to my cooking AND I am saving my family money by not eating out. It costs us almost $30 to eat fast food these days! You add in the bonus of family time at the table and you have a winner! So get in your kitchen and get to cooking!
I am so fortunate that I am in nursing school because I know there are lots of people that can't afford to be or have applied and can't get in. This week has been exhausting and I am not sure why! We have only been in this semester three weeks and it already feels like a lifetime! I think it just caught up with us so fast!
We also had a couple of ladies this week who didn't pass their third round of their math test who face having to leave the program. They are so smart and will make great nurses but nerves just got the best of them. It has been hard because I know what they are going through adn it is a horrible feeling. I am hoping that the ones that make the deciscions provide them mercy today but I also know it is in God's hands and he has a plan for everyone!
It was also bittersweet because the hospital we toured yesterday I had three friends have babies there. One friend no longer lives here and I miss her! The other I am still friends with but we just don't talk very often because of life circumstances & sadly seems we drifted some but hopefully that isn't the case! The third is hard to explain really...I don't really know what happended to us tho I have said my sorry's and forgave them even without them asking and feel like we are at a clean slate but our relationship just has no momentum right now so I am not sure if that is a God thing or what but I will continue to pray about it. Truthfully, God takes people in and out of our lives for a reason and if they are meant to be back in our lives it will happen and if not then we can only remember the good times.
Well....guess I better get off of her....gotta get up and get a few things done because we are going with Baylee's Show Choir on a field trip today to an out of town competition and won't be back until late tonight! I am going to try to record the show and will post here later!
For those of you that don't know...NSV is a weight loss term...I believe coined from Weight Watcher members which means "Non-Scale Victory". A NSV is something that happens during weight loss that you notice different and/or above & beyond what you notice on the scale.
I had mentioned before that I had a few things good happen to me...such as the breathing better, feeling better, etc. The first week I was on the diet my friend's daughter told her mom, "Mrs. Tiffany looks like she lost some weight." My daughter has said the same and I just chalked it up to they knew I was dieting so didn't say much about it.
This week I had a pair of jeans that was so loose I could take off without even buttoning; however, those jeans have always fit me loose because of the material of them so thought okay well maybe I am just "making" it seem greater than it really is.
Last night I had to change out of my clinical clothes to regular clothes to go to bunco. I decided to put on a pair of my jeans I haven't worn too recently. They have a "inner button" and then the regular button. Last time I wore them I had to lay on the bed to button the inner button, they were tight, miserable and I could only wear certain shirts with them that wouldn't show my fat rolls so bad!
Weeelllll...I went over to my closet, pulled them out and THEN...pulled them right up easy breezy without any of the twisting & turning...DRUMROLL.........I then was able to button BOTH buttons without a struggle AT ALL! Once I got them on they were just lose enough to pull up and hide my top fat roll. Don't get me wrong they weren't what you would consider "loose" by any means but the most important thing is they FIT!!!! Second, my friends mom was at bunco who had not seen me in awhile & had no idea I was dieting and she said I looked like I lost weight!!! I was so excited I had to get up and hug her.
This week my husband, out of nowhere, driving down the road puts his hand on my should and says he is proud of me for working so hard and sticking to it, etc.
It is these kinds of things and just the little results that help me keep going even though I sometimes want to quit! Just last night I had a dream I cheated and I was devastated so I WILL NOT be doing that anytime soon!!!!!
**UPDATE** So after I typed this I was kind of being lazy around the house waiting on my husband to come home from work. When I heard the door open I jumped up to go say hello...I just had on a t-shirt (no pants) since I was about to shower and he says...the person that never notices anything...your legs look like they have gotten smaller. Yay!
Today I haven't been as "upbeat" about my diet. I haven't cheated or wanted to cheap but still not very "excited" about it. I think some of it is that I am stressed about money, I am tired, my back hurts from sitting in class and it is cloudy today! It HIT me on the way home when I mentally thought about something I would like to snack on when I get home that all these things (stress, tired, mood) immediately made me just to "thinking" I needed to eat. Pre-life change I would have come home and eaten all kinds of things but I didn't. I was so proud that I was able to "notice" why I was wanting that food.
Last night, I cooked my family a whole meal and didn't even "try" it. I am able to "smell" and notice things more when it comes to food.
I have also implemented something I am calling "Netflix" therapy.I have been watching any little documentary I can about weight loss, exercise and healthy eating/fasting, etc.
I was looking at my calendar this morning and I cannot believe that I am in my third week of my last year of nursing school. Really when you look at it I have less than a year because we graduate in December and we don't have class during the summer months! It is amazing how much has changed in my life in 3 weeks! I am back in school, the hubby is back in school and of course my daughter is back in the second part of 8th grade. I have been doing a diet...no not diet...but a "life change". I have made grade progress and my motivation is unbelievable at this point. I have never been this dedicated this far in the game! We are trying to catch up on bills but have some things coming down the pipe that will help that fall into place! Also, my house has been some kind of clean lately and I am working very hard on my organizing projects. All this may seem minor to some but these are huge areas in my life that I always struggle with and the fact that it is all going semi-smooth is Ahhh-Mazing! I only have one person - GOD! - to thank for that because I know through him all things are possible! I look forward to looking back a year from now and thinking...WOW...I REALLY did it this time!
First, today was a crazy busy long day at school! I came home & filed our taxes and then fixed Brian/Baylee dinner. I got busy doing other things and by the time I realized it I hadn't drank my water and missed dinner but then it got too late & I wasn't really starving so I was like forget it. Hopefully it won't bite me in the booty!
Long time no post as you see! Well I am still in nursing school. I am in my third semester of my adn program. It is very hard & time consuming but I am still loving it and I know this is exactly what I was meant to do. I am just trying to stay focused and trying to be more organized. I know this isn't a lot of information but I will try my hardest to have something else on this site soon! :-)
I make no bones about the fact that I am NOT a water person normally. Being on my new "life change" and hopefully for the rest of my life I am trying really hard to "get addicted" to water. Okay so not in the sense of the people in a mental institution who drink so much they get drunk off it but you get the idea. *grin* I have noticed I am very weird about my water.
When I very first started this diet I had to "gag' down the water. I had to add the Ocean Spray packets (just like the more popular Crystal Lite ones but I prefer Ocean Spray). I would put it in my water bottles and get after it. Then I would get burnt out and drink it just plain in a cup of ice but I can taste the "plastic" hose taste in the ice when I drink it plain (from the ice maker). I tried the drink it fast through the straw fix. All of these things were okay for a bit then I got burnt out. My newest thing is I bought a bottle of smart water & after I finished off I keep refilling it. It has about 4 cups of water per bottle so if I can drink 3 of those today I will be to my goal of 12 cups.
So maybe this wasn't too informative but I write it to just let everyone know...it doesn't matter HOW you drink your water as long as you keep drinking it! I am sure in a day or so I will get tired of the smart water bottle and move on to something else. Just keep drinking!!!!
I did it! I survived week 1! I even came home from class today and went & weighed (middle of the day, lots of water & my shakes ingested, t-shirt, blue jeans & tennis shoes) and I STILL weighed almost 5 pounds less than I did this same day last week! So here is a food recap (you can see journals below) and a few things I have thought and noticed this week:
I did perfect on my shakes all week!
I didn't have any cheats all week! Yay!
I did my best to drink all my water every day but some days I just couldn't get close.
I noticed when I was sleeping that I could actually breathe and was sleeping with my mouth shut. (In the past 8-10 years I pretty much have to sleep with my mouth somewhat open to be able to breathe!)
At school I missed the elevator and went up two sets of stairs to meet up with friends and not until I got to the top did I notice I wasn't even winded! (I haven't even exercised so not sure what that is about?)
My tail-bone and knees have been bothering me lately and I just thought as I was typing this how my hip usually hurts and after one week on this diet no pain! I don't know if maybe it is having more water in my system or if it is because of the milk.
I have SOOO much energy! You wouldn't think so with the fact that I haven't had solid food in over 7 days now but really I feel GREAT!
It is funny that any other time I would enjoy the fact that it is the weekend. When you are dieting that is a whole other story! This weekend hasn't been particularly bad but usually that is the time where we "cook" or have dinner with friends. For instance, we are going to a friends house tomorrow night to have dinner...chili (one of my favorites)...but while everyone is eating I will be sipping on my shake. No fun...no fun...eating all alooonnneee! I will admit that I have been very impressed with my husband who has pretty much been "shaking" with me during the day and only eating dinner at night! That has been a huge help. I have not had a lot of time today to "think" about food because of doing homework and cleaning house. The bad thing is at this point I should have had at least half my water and four shakes. I have had ZERO water today and THREE shakes. I gotta get with it! In the meantime...I am going to share some tips I found in order to stay motivated! (Credit given to http://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/5-weight-loss-motivation-tips-that-work/ for the information below!)
Staying On Track!
Tip 1: Think Slim
This tip is about that all-important moment: What do you experience just before you eat something? Do you tussle with yourself? “I really shouldn’t… but I want to!” Do you imagine how the food will taste, even feel in the mouth? Or do you focus on the real consequences, rather than the temporary satisfactions of eating?
People who are overweight tend to imagine how food is going to tasteand feel as they eat. In contrast, people who naturally ‘eat slim’ tend to imagine how that pie or cake will feel heavy in their stomachs for so long after they’ve eaten it. Jumping from a great height might feel fun whilst it lasts, but the consequences that come after we hit the ground are what we consider when deciding not to do it.
So when you’re tempted to eat something you don’t need, practice imagining how your stomach is going to feel ten minutes or an hour after you’ve consumed that weight-increasing food. Keep it up until this becomes a natural habit for you.
Tip 2: Surround yourself with slim people
No, I’m not suggesting you dump all your less-than-slender friends. But research has shown that the average body type of the people with whom you hang out affects yourweight and size (1). Start hanging around with slimmer, fitter types (perhaps at the gym) and your subconscious mind will pick up a new template for what is ‘normal’. Karen started hanging out and socializing with slim types at a jogging club.
Tip 3: Be fair to yourself
Imagine someone walks up a hundred steps but feels a bit tired, so they stop and step back down one step. They tell you bitterly: “Now I may as well forget this whole idea of reaching the top! I’ve totally blown it!”
What?! You’d think that was crazy, right? Acting as if all that progress, the 99 steps they didclimb, never happened – because they had one slip! But people do this all the time when it comes to weight loss.
You lose weight, maybe four or five pounds, maybe much more. But you slip, have a bad day or a ‘weak moment’, and eat something you shouldn’t have. And what do you tell yourself? “I’ve completely blown it! Now I might as well really binge!”
Beware the perfectionism trap. Aim to eat sensibly and healthily most of the time, not all the time. We all consume more than we should of the wrong kind of food or drink now and then.
Everyone’s weight fluctuates a bit and you should prepare for this (once you’ve reached a healthy weight). Have a ‘sliding scale’ in your mind of a couple of pounds on either side of your target weight. No one can live for long under a self-imposed, too harsh dictatorship.
Tip 4: Weight loss is not a cure-all
Sure, being healthier, fitter, and so on will have positive and maybe unexpected ripple effects. However, even as a slimmer person you’ll still have a bad day in the office, moments of self-doubt, or times when you feel undervalued.
Many people feel let down when they become slimmer and then find that being slim doesn’t solve all their problems in one go. They then revert to eating poorly again. Don’t fall into this trap.
You have lots of different needs which need to be fulfilled in life. Being slimmer, healthier, and fitter is just one of them.
Tip 5: Eat when you’re hungry
I know this sounds obvious, but eating sugary foods causes a subsequent crash in energy, leaving you wanting more sweetness. On the other hand, eating for slow energy release is a sustainable way to keep your weight loss motivation firing on all cylinders without you having to consciously think about it. For slow-release energy, eat protein with every meal alongside ‘good carbs’ such as whole grains, vegetables, fruits, and beans. This avoids the ‘crash and burn’ of sugar overdosing.
I found this part (below) very interesting...kinda makes me think about how our choices REALLY DO affect others!:
(1) Having an obese friend dramatically increases the risk of becoming similarly fat, according to a study published in the New England Journal of Medicine. Obesity is ‘socially contagious’, spreading from person to person in a social network, researchers said. The study found that if one person becomes obese, those closely connected to them have a greater chance of becoming obese themselves. Surprisingly, the greatest effect was seen not among people sharing the same genes or household, but among friends.
So far so good! I am coming to the end of my fourth day and so far it has been good! I have really wanted to cave in a few times but I have held strong! I keep telling myself it is worth it...I AM WORTH it!!! So not great inspiration here or awesome words but just I know I can do this...I can, I can, I can...I WILL! Thought I would add an old photo of myself the last time I was "small" as added inspiration!
This photo was taken on "Senior Day" in my last year of high school! I used this photo because I specifically remember this day and remember how embarrassed I was because I felt so "fat" in this dress!!!! Do I look fat? Ummm...if I were to only be "that fat". :-)
So far I am actually feeling good! Yesterday I didn't seem to feel as well but today I just feel like I have a lot of energy. I am really not "hungry" at all but lots of things sound good. For instance, I am not even a dorritos fan but Baylee was eating some and I can almost envision how good they would taste. We also have some powdered donuts here but fortunately they haven't sounded good. I dreamed yesterday about eating a pickle and a burger from Krystal. It really is mind over matter I think. I thought I could get something and no one would not the difference but for once I thought...I WOULD. Not to mention one little chip would completely ruin what I am working towards. I keep telling myself I have had over 32 years to eat what I want & like I read on another person's website...the food isn't going anywhere. I can always eat later on when I am healthier and can eat just a small serving of something bad occasionally. I came across a gem of a website about a lady who has been doing OptiFAST (the program I am basing my fast off of). She has said so many informative things. Between reading her website (optifastblog.wordpress.com) and watching the show Traci suggested (Fat, Sick & Nearly Dying) I feel really good about my decision to make this change in my life. I am glad that day three has gone so well and I am in hopes that the rest of the week continues to go just as well!
So my plan redo is this (based on the things I have read):
Month 1: Continue with my shakes/water only for the remainder of my four weeks.
Month 2: Morning slim fast bar/1 cup milk; lunch shake; afternoon snack chicken broth; dinner shake
Month 3: Morning slim fast bar/1 cup milk; lunch shake; afternoon snack chicken broth; dinner 4 oz chicken and 1/2 cup of veggies
Month 4: Morning slim fast bar/1 cup milk; salad; afternoon snack chicken broth; dinner 4 oz chicken and 1/2 cup of veggies
Even if I don't get a chance to do this everyday I am going to try to do it as often as possible. As I said before I am doing "shakes" for a month. Might not be the right choice for everyone but this is my "jump-start". On week five I will add in something at breakfast (taking away one of my shakes), week 6 I will add in something at lunch (taking away another shake) and week 7 I will add in something at dinner taking away another shake, week 8 I will add a morning snack (taking away another shake!) and week 9 add an afternoon snack (taking away the final shakes!).
Meals: 6 shakes (1440 Calories)
2 Ocean Spray water packs (10 Calories)
Water: 12 glasses
Exercise: Nada! :/
Other: Multi-vitamin, Vitex Berry (For my female stuff!), hydroxycut (I have one bottle that I have taken before and I am only taking half the dose a day until the bottle runs out to get me used to not eating much each day!)
WOW...it has been four years since we have used this site! To make matters worse...I haven't even lost/maintained in that time. I have actually PUT ON weight since the very first time we ever posted on this site. I am the biggest I have ever been and when I did my virtual model this morning it wouldn't even go UP to my weight. It is sad, really. I don't know why I just can't manage to lose weight BUT what I do know is it is now time. I have four good motivations this year though:
We are going on our first cruise in May. I want to look better, feel better and most of all be happy to take photos at all the fun places we go!
Brian's college graduation will be late this summer and I don't want to be the "fat" wife. These are photos to keep forever in remembrance of a great day and I don't want to "hate" looking at myself.
My 15 year reunion! I was the "fat" fun & friendly girl at our 10 year reunion and could not find a THING to wear. I want to be able to be cute this time around!
My college graduation! I don't want to look like I am wearing a "moomoo" in my graduation cap & gown!
So what am I doing you ask? Well I know some people will turn their nose up at this but this is important to me. I am one of those people that has to see numbers to keep me motivated. I think in a long time the greatest amount of weight I have lost is maybe 20lbs. (Not sure about this tho...will have to look through old post!) I have worked with attorneys who did the liquid diet thing through a local hospital. I have a friend who has done the Optifast diet. Well I decided I am going along these same lines. I am doing a liquid diet (Brian will monitor my BP, etc. at home.) for the next month. I am going to make sure I meet adequate calories, drink plenty of water and take my vitamins. I am going to get in a gallon of water daily as well as a minimum of 30 minutes of exercise.
After the 30 days, you slowly add in "healthy" foods. I am so embarrassed after weighing this morning that I decided I am not sharing my starting weight with anyone until after my four weeks is up. So on February 13th...I will post my starting weight and my weight after the four weeks. Good or bad...I will post both numbers.
I also put a water tracker on my phone (not getting enough liquids each day is a huge downfall for me!) as well as downloaded a blogger link so I have no excuse to not blog because I can do it straight from my phone! I will now put in my very first virtual model which is not actually my very first starting weight because it won't go that high! I will also try to find some fairly recent starting photos.
I remembered two other things I want to lose for other than the obvious of being healthy & the things listed above! One is that my friends got a boat late last summer and we will be out on it more and I want to be comfortable when I am out there! Also, our family always goes to the lake in the summer and I want to be ready!